The last 24 hours has been a rollercoaster ride.
When Sabine was born you had pretty much 3 things to worry about: food, sleep, and dirty diapers. As she got older she communicated new things to us: I want a blanket, I want up, I want Mommy or Daddy, I want some new shiny thing. Every week we would say to ourselves, “Did you see she’s doing this” or “Did you know when she makes that particular sound it means this”. 3.5 years later she just tells us what she wants. We can reason with her ( most of the time), she makes up stories and songs, pretends to go to work, and she even catches us doing things we tell her not to do. As Courtney wrote to us, “she seems to have turned into a little 13 year old over night”.
Amara definitely has a little mind of her own, but she can’t communicate in a way we are used to. It’s both amazing for us when we discover new things she can communicate and overwhelming when you aren’t sure what she wants. She is very alert and many things catch her eyes. Interesting sounds cause her to turn her head to find the source. She likes to keep an eye on us whenever we leave her side. Or when Bebeth was the more scary one, she definitely kept an eye on her to make sure she didn’t sneak up. She can point to things she wants, she’s great a copying things we do, she doesn’t like to be tickled and doesn’t like certain types of touching, e.g. if I tickle her knee she reaches over and forcibly removes my hand, or if I put my hand on her back, she’ll reach around and remove it from her back. When you’ve ignored her pointing for something she’ll raise both hands and drop them to her lap while making an emphatic sound, she seems to rub her ears as well as her eyes when she get’s tired, she can shake her head no when you keep handing something to her doesn’t want (about half the time she’ll just throw it on the ground), she loves to cruise around the room, and will grasp your fingers when she wants to head off somewhere.
Last night around 9:30 the challenges seemed to tip towards overwhelming: Bebeth and I were both tired, my back is hurting a lot, I was worried that Amara was only going to let me hold her for the next 8 days, I thought I was getting some stomach problems, Amara seemed to getting her second wind, and I was missing Sabine. Sitting on the floor I thought to myself, “What did we get ourselves into? Was life so easy that we though we needed this big of a challenge?”. But a little after 10 pm Amara fell asleep, she slept until 7am, Bebeth and I both slept until about 6ish, she seems to have no problem letting either Bebeth or I hold her or carry her in the carrier, we were able to head out today and go for a nice walk around the city, my back seems to be better, and I did not get any lasting stomach issues, life seems so much better already. I still wish we were heading home sooner than later, but everything seems much more manageable now, hence the roller coaster ride.